Response to Wende's Response To Borderline Remembering

I wish I could, I wish I could. I never thought I'd be "one of those women" whom I considered to be "whiners" and "weak" for staying with someone whose head was so screwed up, but lo and behold, now I'm in it myself. I'm sure I'm not the only one on this list in the same situation. For now, I am a bloody masochist.

The good times have been the best days of my entire life, I've never experienced such magic and beauty. That's the curse of BPD--the good times are so damn good they're addictive. For the moment, I am hanging on. I'm definitely not giving in or giving him the message that what he does is acceptable. If things don't change, I don't think I can take it for any more years. I refuse to be made into a monster. I refuse to use all of my love for nothing. For now, I'm just sitting. And waiting.

A.K.

Walt's Response to Wende

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