Are you new to the diagnosis of BPD?

[Jimmiedee]

Hi, my name is Linda and I don't live in the USA. I have been diagnosed with BPD early december by mi psychiatrist after three therapy-session with him. At the last session, which lasted for about ten minutes, he handed me a brochure about BPD and told me to read it for he says that I appear to him as having BPD. He told me that he will discuss it with me on the next vist, which is January 15th. I am totally confused. I have told my mom about it, she read the brochure and she agrees that I have BPD. I have not been put on any medication, just Ambien. I keep on having suicidal thoughts and I try to hold on to January 15th, but I am really scared and I feel that everyone knows that I am Borderline just by looking at me. I think I am completely losing my mind.

Linda
Hi Linda,
My name is Jimmiedee (Female)  I am new here but just read this post.
My heart hurt for you.  I think your Doc  shouldn't have given you a pamphlet after just a ten minute visit.
 my other thought is a diagnosis is only a starting point for more effective treatment. Everyone has felt like they were loosing their mind from time This last week I had to put my 12 yr Service dog down and then had to give my other dog a way after only having her for one year.
My mind was so sick with grief. i felt crazy.
Take care,

[Linda]

Jimmiedee, I am so sorry for your loss. My dog is very sick too at the moment and I am trying everything I can to make her last days comfortabel. I have had to put two of my cats to sleep last November and I can't bear to lose Sandy, my dog. My mom has promised me that we would get another dog as soon Sandy dies, so that my other dog won't feel alone. But it is still not the same.
Do you still have pets? Why did you have to give your other dog away?

My Psychiatrist turned out to be a friendly person. I think giving me the brochure about BPD was his way to make his point clear. He has snet me to CBT at a psychologist who "has more time than he".

I hope you'll find comfort on this website on BPD and BPD related stuff. I am also very new but feel like I have known about BPD like forever. (It has been two months since Dx)

All the best,

Linda

and thanks for replying.


update: 2/20/08 My dog Sandy has been put to sleep this afternoon . She did not suffer, it went fast. I am crying a lot.

[A.J. Mahari]

Hi Aj,
Thanks for leading this group. I have been living the DBT lifestyle for about two years Community Mental Health in my area is going to start an advance class there are about five of us that want to learn even more
The class IM in DBT is busting with new forks. I really don't know if I have BPD or not but I suffer with anxiety and depression. Both the DBT Skills and group support have been a God sent. I wanted to know if you knew of a diary Card for both eating disorders and Impulse in buying. I don't have trouble with Suicide or selfharm.I have a lot of difficulty with keeping any kind of commitment. I guess I know ill quit. so I still have a lot of Building Mastery and oppisit Action a head of me I really want to change though!
Thanks again!
Jimmiedee

Hi JD,

I am not sure if there a DBT diary card for eating disorders, I'll do some checking. In the meantime I found 2 handout sheets that go with the Eating Mindfully and I did post them in the DBT workshop area yesterday. I don't think there is one for impulse buying but I think that you can work the traditional diary card with these issues. If you say you "know" you will quit that will make it "FEEL" necessary at some point. How about some radical acceptance and mindfulness practice and taking it one moment or one day at a time? Wanting/needing to build mastery is in direct opposition to not making a commitment, so practice the opposite action if and when the impulse or urge to quit gets strong and hang in there!

[cash]

I have recently been diagnosed BPD and I am so frustrated, angry, sad, where does it end?  My Psychiatrist has put me through a battery of medications and I have been suffering with my BPD and side effects of these meds.  There isn't a day that I don't feel nausea.  I finally found a therapist who seems to knows something about BPD, but I am scared.  I live my life hopeless.  Everything that has been good in my life I have sabotaged.  I am so tired of being me.  Do mood stabilizers (Tegretol) really help people with BPD?  I feel like I am in a hole spinning around a million miles an hour.  I am to the point where I am feeling ill and I believe it is from the meds.  I am so frustrated and would appreciate some light.

Thank you for listening.

[A.J. Mahari]

I have recently been diagnosed BPD and I am so frustrated, angry, sad, where does it end?  My Psychiatrist has put me through a battery of medications and I have been suffering with my BPD and side effects of these meds.  There isn't a day that I don't feel nausea.  I finally found a therapist who seems to knows something about BPD, but I am scared.  I live my life hopeless.  Everything that has been good in my life I have sabotaged.  I am so tired of being me.  Do mood stabilizers (Tegretol) really help people with BPD?  I feel like I am in a hole spinning around a million miles an hour.  I am to the point where I am feeling ill and I believe it is from the meds.  I am so frustrated and would appreciate some light.

Thank you for listening.

Hi Cash, and welcome

Interesting question, "where does it end?" I think a question that would really help you is, "where does it all begin?"

I am sorry you are having a hard time generally, with self-sabotage and medication. Being tired of being you is a great place
to start to radically accept what is. From that place you can begin to find your way slowly, over time, toward change. Light
can come from beginning to read the Distress Tolerance Module of DBT skills. You can download it on my web site here
at www.borderlinepersonality.ca/dbt.htm

Rome wasn't built in a day and it can't be changed in a day. I wish for you the finding of hope and learning how to be patient with what is until you can create the kind of change that will improve the quality of your life. You are not alone.

[GrannyGina]

Hello, my name is Regina, and yes I am newly diagnosed with BPD.  For me it's almost a relief, and scarry at the same time.  I have been studying psych for years, I guess mainly, just to find out why I am the way that I am.  I read about this about 3 years ago, and believed that it described me to a "T", but when I went to MHMR in Dallas, they basically said that I didn't know what I was talking about, and diagnosed me with Major Depression.  At that time my 4th, now 5th husband who I just remarried was more of a focus, because of his drug addiction, so I as usual forgot about me, and focused on someon else.

Well I got the nerve again to go back to individual counseling,and my Therapist brought this back to my attention, and I just cried when I heard it again.  Almost everything in the DSM IV book identified me, except for the cutting and suicidal stuff, but once I really began to think about it, I realized that I do that too, but only in a different way.  I have been an insulin dependent diabetic for 30 years and at times, when I wanted attention, for instance when my husband would go out on his binges, I would stop taking my shots, and go to emergency, and get checked in.  Man that was really something for me to admit to, but yes, it is true. 

There is so much to say, but I am just trying to learn all that I can, so that I can live, as normal a life as possible.  Thank you for this sight and may God continue to bless you...Gina

[Francine]

Hi Regina,

My name is Francine and welcome.  I hope that the information found in this forum will be of big help to u.  You're not alone.  U have all of us..

Francine

[GrannyGina]

Thanks Francine, it's always good to know that you have someone in your corner...Thanks and God Bless...Gina